Happy Valentine's Day! My gift to you: an extended look at one of the flashback sequences in American Hellhound.
From American Hellhound
copyright ©2017 by Lauren Gilley
Ghost
stepped out of the pharmacy with three different kinds of children’s fever
reducer. Plus some Pepto-Bismol in case the stomach trouble persisted. At the
register, he’d added a package of Skittles, because Aidan loved Skittles, and
candy always made everything better. He stood on the sidewalk, plastic bag in
one hand, head tipped back so he could feel the sun on his face. It wasn’t warm
enough to fight the nip in the air, but he liked the way the light burned
against his eyelids. Maybe, if he stood there long enough, his problems would
melt away into the soothing whiteness that slowly filled his head.
The wind kicked up by a passing car
tugged at his clothes, and with a sigh, he righted himself, blinked his vision
back to normal, and started back toward his bike.
He glanced automatically toward the
door of Hiram’s Spirits as he passed. His head still hurt, and his stomach
still rolled, souvenirs of last night’s drinking. The hangover would fade when
he got some food and water into him. Or he could crack open a beer and chase it
away quicker than that.
No, he had to get back to Aidan.
Stay focused. Plus, it was alarming how much he leaned on alcohol these days.
Two girls stood outside Hiram’s,
shoulders braced against the concrete façade, wind playing with their hair. One
was brunette, wore too much mascara, and regarded him with sullen defiance. The
other one…
The other one was worth a second
look.
She was blonde, and had a sweet
face. Red lipstick. A too-big leather jacket, white tank top that clung to her
breasts, tight-tight jeans. Her boots looked old and beat-up. She was smoking;
he caught a glimpse of red nail polish as she lifted her cig and took a drag.
In a physical sense, she was just like the groupies at the clubhouse. It was
something else, something intangible, some aura she projected that raised the
fine hairs on his arms – that was why he slowed down and really looked at her.
Her eyes came to his – wide, hazel –
and lingered a beat too long. No smile, no wink, no pretend-seductive lip bite.
He’d become so immune to the tactics of the groupies that her total lack of
flirtation captured his attention. Her gaze swept down to his toes and then
back up, lingering somewhere in the vicinity of the little crown patch sewn
onto his breast pocket – the one that marked him as royal family. Being Duane’s
only nephew had its perks, if you overlooked the burdens.
She was cute. She was hot. But like hell did he need another
female complication in his life. At least with the groupies there were no
expectations. They traded sex for a little security and a place to crash. Real
women – and he felt his lip curl when he thought of Olivia – wanted things. Demanded them, and when
they didn’t get them, left you for some other schmuck.
He kept walking.
He was three steps past them when a
tentative voice called, “Sir?”
He should ignore her. He really
should. But the edge of nervousness in her voice reached straight through his
logical side and touched his hindbrain. It had been years since Olivia had
spoken to him with anything besides frosty disapproval. The shy, uncertain lilt
to this girl’s voice did things to his baser instincts.
“Sir?” she said again, and there
couldn’t be any harm in seeing what she wanted, could there?
Ghost halted and turned around.
“Yeah?”
The brunette snorted a laugh and
turned her head away, muttering something into her hand.
The blonde stuck her cig in her
mouth, slid a pair of black Ray-Bans into place, and took the cig back out
again, exhaling a long, unsteady stream of smoke. “Can I ask you a favor?” Her
voice was stronger this time, but he knew what the sunglasses meant: she was
even more nervous now.
He felt one corner of his mouth
tugging in a reluctant grin. “Depends on what the favor is. I got somewhere to
be.”
She banded an arm across her middle,
holding tight, but smiled, lifted her chin, and said, “Oh, it won’t take long.
Promise. Just a quick favor.”
Ghost took a step toward her, and
then another. Close enough to see the smattering of goosebumps across her
chest. Close enough to see her throat jump as she swallowed. Close enough to
see her tap ash off her cigarette with a nervous flick of her thumbnail. She
was young, younger than he’d first thought. So many of the groupies slathered
on the makeup and dyed their hair and tried to reclaim their glory days. This
girl had smooth, smooth skin, pale as cream, a faint tracery of blue veins
visible at the base of her throat. Her cheeks still had that faint hint of baby
fat that meant she was younger than he was.
“Alright,” he said. “So long as it’s
quick.”
She let out a breath that said she
hadn’t expected him to agree. “Okay.” She reached into her back pocket,
overlarge jacket gaping in front so he got a view of her narrow waist, and
flared hips. She pulled out a folded twenty and extended it toward him. “We
were hoping you could go in there” – tilt of her head back toward the building
– “and buy us some beer.”
He wanted to laugh. Instead, he
said, “You’re not twenty-one.”
“Not yet.” Her voice grew defensive.
“Just…” She sighed. “Look, it’s dumb, okay, but we can’t buy any, and it’s not
like there’s any at home for me to nick. So would you mind? Please? Mr…”
“Ghost.”
“Mr. Ghost?”
“Nah, that’s my club name, darlin’.”
The brunette turned around. “So
you’re really a Lean Dog?” she asked, and then slapped a hand over her mouth
like she couldn’t believe her own boldness.
He chuckled. “Yeah, really. And
don’t be calling me ‘mister.’ Makes me feel old.”
The blonde nodded. “Fair enough. So
will you do it?” She waggled the money at him. “You can keep the change.”
Ghost had never asked a stranger to
buy him beer because he’d never had to. He’d grown up in the club, and alcohol
had been available to him from an inappropriate age. He’d never had to leave
home to get into trouble – home was
trouble.
But he knew other kids didn’t have
it so easy. Strict parents and curfews and the constant threat of being
grounded.
“Yeah.” He took the money from her.
“What kind do you want?”
She shrugged. “I don’t care.
Whatever’s good.”
“You trust my judgement?”
“I figure a real Lean Dog knows
plenty about drinking,” she shot back. “Yeah, I trust you.”
He had the sudden, inexplicable urge
to make her regret that statement.
“Go around the side,” he said. “Wait
for me there.”
“Okay.”
He entered the store grinning to
himself. There were days – a lot more days than he liked to admit – that he
wished he could rewind his life and go back to the time when getting beer was
his biggest worry of the day. Those two
girls would have larger problems soon enough; he wasn’t going to be an adult
about this. Let them drink, let them have a little fun, he thought.
He grabbed a six-pack of Bud Light –
because they didn’t need to have too much fun in the middle of the day – and
a bottle of Jack for himself. He didn’t have any at home, and he figured he’d
need it by the end of the day.
Bobby was working the register, and
he greeted Ghost with familiarity. “Heard it was a hell of a party last night,”
he said with a suggestive eyebrow waggle.
“Now where would you hear that,
Bobby?”
“I got my sources.”
“You should come one night.”
Bobby laughed. “Nah. My girl would
kill me.” He bagged the six-pack and bottle and pushed them across the counter.
“You have fun, though.”
“Always do.”
Ghost pulled to an abrupt halt in
front of the glass door on his way out. Caught off guard by his dim reflection.
He carried a bag in each hand. In
one: whiskey and beer. In the other: his sick son’s medicine. The sad absurdity
of his life hit him anew. Twenty-seven and divorced, a single father, an angry
Army vet with a drinking problem, a shitty apartment, no future prospects, and
a bad habit of falling into bed with women whose names he didn’t know. When he
woke up each morning, it was with a sick ball of dread lodged at the base of
his throat. He looked forward to nothing but the next toke, next drink, next
release. He couldn’t remember what happiness looked, sounded, or tasted like.
It was a waste of a life.
And staring at his own pathetic
reflection, he was furious about it.
He shoved the door open too hard, so
hard it swung back on its hinges and nearly collided with the brick that served
as a doorstop in the warm months.
“Hey,” Bobby protested.
The little blonde was waiting for
him, as instructed, around the end of the building, leaning back against the
cinderblocks with one booted foot braced behind her, a fresh cigarette burning
between her fingers.
Stupid
little bitch, he thought, viciously. Standing there in the middle of the
damn day, ruining her lungs, giving money to total strangers. She was young,
there was nothing wrong with her life, and she was already trying to fuck it
up. What a waste. What a goddamn waste.
“Hey,” he said, sharply, and her
head snapped around. “I got your beer.” He set the bags down and reached into
the Hiram’s one for the six-pack. “Where’s your friend?” His voice was rough.
He sounded like an old man, like his father, like Duane. He was just so angry, suddenly.
“A cop drove past and she got
spooked,” the girl said with an airy shrug. But Ghost could read the tension in
her shoulders. She was spooked too, but was pushing through. Proving something
to herself, or some shit.
“Not you, though, huh?” Ghost
stepped over the bags and into her personal space, right up close. She had to
press her back to the wall and tip her head back to look up and meet his stare.
All he saw were the lenses of the Ray-Bans…and the trembling, red bow of her
mouth. She was spooked alright…scared to death. “You’re the brave one, right?” he pressed, leaning in
close enough to smell the smoke on her breath.
“I…” she started, half-indignation,
half-fear.
He reached up, one fast move, and
pushed her sunglasses into her hair. Beneath them, her eyes were wide, shocked,
a warm green-brown shot through with gold. They flicked back and forth across
his face, trying to get a read on him. He could smell her shampoo, lotion, the
faint chemical tang of her lipstick: feminine smells. He saw her pulse flutter
at the base of her throat. Saw her nostrils flare as she took a deep breath.
There were a dozen things he could
have said to her. But what came out of his mouth was: “What’s your name?”
~*~
One
of the things Maggie had never understood about her friend Rachel was the way
she seemed to be indiscriminately attracted to every man alive. Maybe it was
hormones, or maybe it was a ruse in order to appear older and worldly, but she
flirted shamelessly with everything male on two legs. She was always saying
things like “isn’t he cute?” and “you should ask him out.” There appeared to be
no pattern of age, looks, fitness level, or style. And when Maggie refused to
“ask him out,” Rachel would shrug, tug her shirt down, and say, “Well then I
will.”
If she was being honest, Maggie
didn’t really give a damn about boys right now. Her whole life was locked down
by her mother’s plans and expectations; the last thing she wanted was to trade
her mother’s ideals for some boy’s. It was just another form of subjugation.
She didn’t go on dates, didn’t make eyes at anyone, and shuddered when her
cotillion class dance partners put their clammy hands on her waist. Maybe some
day she’d feel a stirring of attraction for someone, but it hadn’t happened
yet.
At least…it hadn’t happened prior to
today.
The biker, the Lean Dog who’d told
her his name was Ghost – she’d never felt anything like the frisson of energy
he inspired in the pit of her stomach. He was tall and broad-shouldered,
narrow-hipped and sharp-featured. The sunlight turned glossy and slick in his
short, dark, curly hair. He needed to shave, and the pushed-up sleeves of his
shirt revealed tan, muscled, tattooed forearms. He looked dangerous enough
already – miles from the cotillion boys, and a good bit older, too – and then
there was the Lean Dogs cut. The symbol that incited fear and censure in
Knoxville. Half the men in the city wanted to have the lot of them imprisoned.
And the other half wanted to be one
of them. There were rebels, there were bad boys, and then there were Lean Dogs.
If anyone was going to buy underage
girls beer and think nothing of it, it was a one-percenter. She still couldn’t
believe her boldness, the way she’d been able to keep her voice from shaking.
Right now, with the rough concrete
wall biting into her shoulders through the jacket, she couldn’t believe the
anger in his gaze. Nor the way he stepped in close and loomed over her. She
tried and failed to suppress a shiver.
Just before Rachel took off, she
said, “You’re crazy for messing with a Dog,” and apparently she’d been right.
Right now, Maggie felt very crazy,
and very small, and very-very stupid.
“M-my name?” she stammered, trying
to shrink back another inch. There was nowhere to go. She had a feeling he’d
make a grab for her if she tried to duck to the side.
He grinned, all teeth, and it wasn’t
friendly. Up close, his eyes were coffee and coal; little lines branched back
from the corners, the effects of sun and wind against his face when he rode. He
smelled like sweat, and cigarettes, and something she couldn’t place that left
her short of breath.
“Yeah,” he said, chuckling. “Your
name.”
Her mother would keel over dead if
she knew she gave her name to a man like this. Maybe that was why she said,
“Maggie,” and kicked her chin up so she could meet his dark gaze.
“Maggie.” The way he said her name
conjured images of all things chocolatey, velvety, sugary. Not just her name,
but something dark, and sweet, and hot. Like she was something he wanted.
She shivered again, a hard shudder
that gripped tight at the back of her neck. She had to wet her lips before she
could speak. His eyes followed the movement of her tongue. “Yeah. Maggie.”
The moment spun out, the afternoon
stalled around them. The traffic on the street, the beer abandoned a few steps
away, Rachel, her promise to be home for dinner – all of it fell away, and it
was just her, and this man named Ghost, and her pounding heart.
“Alright, Maggie,” he said, voice
low and rough. He braced a hand on the wall beside her. The other one, to her
shock, landed on her hip. He grinned when he felt her jump. “Here’s the thing.
It was real damn stupid of you to ask me to buy you beer.”
She couldn’t let him see that she
was afraid; she was too ashamed to. “Why?” she asked. “Are you an undercover
cop or something?”
He snorted, and it stirred her hair
against the sides of her face. “Nah, sweetheart. Way worse than that. Didn’t
your mama ever tell you not to try and pet stray dogs?”
“My mama tells me lots of things, so
many I tune her out most of the time. And I wasn’t trying to pet you, if you’ll
recall. I just wanted some beer.”
He smiled again, and this time there
was a spark of real amusement in his eyes. “Yeah, and I got your beer. But for
what? Twelve bucks? You thought that was enough?”
She bristled, lifting away from the
wall, which – bad idea – brought them even closer together. She wasn’t going to
back off, though. “It took you less than five minutes. It wasn’t a job worth
more than twelve dollars.”
He clucked. “Nah, see, that I don’t
agree with.”
She sighed, fear and frustration
mounting in equal parts. “That’s all the money I’m carrying. And no, I don’t
have an ATM card.”
“Hmm. That’s too bad.” He made a
considering face.
“You can keep the beer if you want.
Just…”
His eyes snapped back to hers. “Just
what?”
Maybe if she’d paid more attention
to Rachel, she’d know how to flirt her way out of this. As it was, her only
weapons were stubbornness, firmness…and her last resort. A request. “Just let
me go,” she said with a defeated exhale. “Please. I’m sorry I bothered you.”
“One thing first,” he said. Then he
ducked his head and kissed her.
It was her first kiss. It was her first kiss, and it was with an angry
outlaw who smelled like smoke.
But…oh…
His mouth was hot, his tongue slick
when it pressed for entry between her lips.
This wasn’t the tentative peck of a
boy her own age. This was a full-on assault. And she was blindsided by the
sensations, by the way he just took what he wanted; helpless to resist, she
opened her mouth and let him in. And God.
His tongue slid against hers. He nipped at the soft flesh of her lower lip. She
felt the scrape of his stubble, the rough catch in his breath. His hand slipped
up beneath the hem of her shirt and pressed boldly across her stomach, the
calluses on his fingers rough against her skin.
It went on and on, drugging and
deep. And then he pulled back, breathing hard through his mouth. Maggie was
dizzy and lightheaded, her heart caught somewhere high in her throat.
He kissed the edge of her jaw, the
sensitive place just below her ear. “You better be careful, little girl,” he
murmured. “The next guy’s gonna want more than that.”
He withdrew, leaving her cold and
rattled in his wake. His expression was smug as he stepped back, his eyes raking
her head to toe, mentally undressing her.
“You–” he started, and tripped over
the bags he’d left behind him.
He kept his footing, but the heel of
his boot tore the thin plastic of the drugstore bag he’d been carrying when she
first saw him. The contents spilled out onto the dirty concrete: Children’s
Tylenol, Children’s Motrin, and a generic brand of brightly colored kid’s fever
reducer; a bag of Skittles; Pepto-Bismol.
She stared at the bottles as her
heartrate slowed, trying to make sense of his purchases. He didn’t look like
the kind of guy who had trouble swallowing aspirin. No, this was for a child.
Maybe his child. Probably his child.
As she watched, his entire demeanor
changed. “Aw, fuck,” he muttered, scrubbing a hand back through his hair. He
crouched down and started repacking the bottles with fast, hurried movements,
fumbling in his haste. The bag had lost all integrity, though, and they spilled
back out. “Fuck,” he hissed again. “Just fuck me. Fucking…” He gathered them up
in his arms and surged to his feet.
There was color in his cheeks, and
she didn’t think it had anything to do with their kiss. He ducked his head,
held his purchases tight to his chest, and hurried away from her without
looking back.
Maggie watched him go, dumbfounded,
his shoulders tense and drawn in, his strides quick and uneven. Gone was the
swaggering young man who’d first spotted her on the sidewalk. The frantic guy
in his place seemed a different person entirely.
The torn bag flapped, and rolled,
and set off across the parking lot like an errant leaf. The other bag rustled
noisily, held in place by its contents.
When her legs felt steady enough,
Maggie stepped away from the wall and bent over the Hiram’s bag. Inside was a
six-pack of Bud Light, a bottle of Jack, and the change from the twenty she’d
given him.
And Ghost…he was a ghost.
Disappeared around the corner.
So amazing..... Just makes you want more. Thanks
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ReplyDeleteEven at her young age Maggie seemed to hold it together. Thank you for this Valentine's Day gift 🎁. Love reading about the beginning of a MC dynasty.
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to more of Ghost and Maggie. Love the Lean Dogs.
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ReplyDeleteOh yeah - can't wait, as usual, for another Lean Dog story!
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