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Tuesday, July 30, 2019

New short story: Corona Civica

Okay, so this is a short story - in theory - that I was going to enter into a contest. But Markus getting sick derailed a number of plans, and I haven't had the chance - since it's a historical piece - to do the proper backing-up-my instincts research and editing. So I can't submit it - but I can share it with you! What I intended to be a standalone short ended up being the prologue of a historical romance novel. I know it's an old trope, woefully unoriginal, but I just really loved writing it, and hope to turn it into a full book at some point in the future. It was one of those projects that helped me to see how much my prose has grown in the past decade, and that's thrilling. 

It's about 3.5k words, set in London. I reuse some names from some of my other work (Charlie is one of my favorite names of all time, y'all), and I'll readily admit that it's editing neither for factual content, nor for typos. But otherwise, please enjoy.



Corona Civica

“Rex is stopping by tonight,” Tommy said over breakfast. “Or, supposed to be.” And Danny left the last of his toast uneaten, belly clenching with excitement for the first time in quite a long time. 

Friday, July 26, 2019

Ultimate Favorite




(Poor internet connection kept me from posting this yesterday, so just pretend it's still Thursday)

It’s Thursday – Throwback Thursday, if you will – and I’m reflecting on an ultimate favorite.



I hesitate to speak for all authors, but I’m willing to bet there are those, like me, who can name a definitive source of inspiration. A piece of fictional media that resonated so deeply, that tickled every creative corner of their brain so thoroughly, that it informed their craft. For me, that definitive piece of media is Peter Jacksons The Fellowship of the Ring



Firstly, I know there’s been lots of pushback against Tolkien in some segments of the fantasy writing community the past few years. Not so much a criticism of him or his work, but a lamentation that so many fantasy writers drew direct inspiration from him. So there’s a self-conscious part of me that wants to claim something much more niche and specialized is my all-time favorite. I wholeheartedly agree that far too many fantasy novels copied Tolkien’s example to a point that borders upon outright plagiarism, and I’ve certainly, in the last decade, drawn inspiration from other, non-Western sources. 



But. LOTR is my ride or die. And not because I want to write a fantasy world modeled after it. But because, specifically with Jackson’s films, the blend of characterization, storytelling, and visual effects so completely aligns with my own personal approach to the craft. 



I read Tolkien as a wee lass, old battered, eighties-era paperbacks with frankly terrible cover art. I loved the trippy old animated version. But then, when I was a freshman in high school, Peter Jackson’s version of the trilogy released – well, the first film, did – and I have genuinely never had a film-watching experience like that very first viewing since. The last ten minutes or so, including Boromir’s death, Sam and Frodo in the boat, and Aragorn, Legolas, and Gimli deciding to go after Merry and Pippin: top moment in film. There has never been an on-screen death to rival Boromir’s. “I would have followed you. My brother, my captain, my king.” 



To take a step back from my emotions, and look at it analytically, the whole film trilogy has everything I love about fiction. Characters you absolutely love, all of whom are very distinct, and well-fleshed out, damaged but endearing. You have moments of urgency, yes, but overall a slow story pace that allows for deep reflection. That allows for the moments of complete and total melodrama that I love so much – but a melodrama well-earned, being rooted in the fate of the world and humanity, rather than a contemporary soap opera kind of melodrama. You have moments that deliver emotional satisfaction, even in times of crisis and tragedy. Our characters never let us down – they never let each other down. And, above all, the ultimate message of the story is one of finding strength in dark times; of trying because it’s the right thing to do, despite the odds; messages of love, and friendship, and loyalty, and sacrifice. LOTR is the antithesis of post-modern edginess. LOTR is the polar opposite of the ultimate message of the Game of Thrones TV show. LOTR makes you gasp, and cry, and cheer, and at the end, it rewards you for having become so invested. 



I think often that I want to write something like LOTR, not because I want to write a novel with elves in it – although I very much do – but because I want to create a piece of art that makes readers feel the way that trilogy makes me feel. It’s why I go about all the world-building, and character-crafting; it’s why the slow-moving stories, and the drama and heartbreak. I’ve not gotten there yet, and perhaps I never will. But that’s what I’ve always been chasing. To take the feeling those films inspired in me, and put it on the page.


Thursday, July 18, 2019

Type 5: Thinker/Observer








I’ve taken quite a few personality tests over the years, especially when I was still in college, and usually the results are inconclusive. I’m almost one type, but with traits of another, and the questions always felt like very big, broad statements I wasn’t comfortable giving a yes or no answer to. I’m an “it depends” question answerer. 


But earlier this week I finally took the Enneagram Test that everyone’s been talking about on social media, and wow, wow, wow, it was painfully accurate. I’m a Type 5, and the results felt like something I’d written myself. Withdrawn, cerebral loner who struggles with socialization and invests lots of energy into acquiring knowledge? Check. Wildly self-conscious and afraid to appear unintelligent or uninformed in front of others? Double check.

Monday, July 15, 2019

General Update Stuff

Well, I managed not to blog for the entire month of June, and now it's halfway through July. Between personal stress, and an effort to have a Summer of All the Words, I've done a social media pullback, but I think it's high time for some general updates.

- On a personal front, my horse Markus has been sick since June 20th, and has needed lots of special care and attention. He's having a flareup of an autoimmune issue which, at its worst, causes his left hind leg to swell larger than twice its normal size, from groin to hoof. It weeps fluid, and the hair and skin die, and he runs fever, and can't walk, and it's generally awful. Given this is his 4th (maybe 5th) flareup in the last decade, and that he's now 23 years old, it's been a rough time for the old widow-maker. The swelling is down - his leg hasn't been normal-sized in years, so we're back to his baseline, more or less - and the fever's gone, but he went off his feed and lost lots of weight. Eating better, but still not moving well. Poor man. 

- Funnily enough, though, that kind of stress tends to make me creative; or perhaps it's just that I need a productive outlet for the stress. So I've been writing quite a lot in the evenings and between looking after him. Right now I have somewhere in the neighborhood of 7 WIPs that I ping back and forth between. Golden Eagle is my main project, but I try to add at least 100 words a day to the others. They're all very different genre-wise, and I'd really like to comoplete all of them. 

- If you follow me on FB, you'll know that thanks to an old/corrupted flash drive and a glitchy automatic computer update, I have, for the moment, "misplaced" all 110k words of the planned Dartmoor book 7, When In Rome. I have my computer set to autosave every 5 mins, and I've manually saved the book all along, too. I've worked on it on 2 separate computers, and I most definitely didn't delete it, but it's just gone. I have no idea how that's possible. I plan to, at some point, see if an IT expert knows of a way to retrieve it from the aether, but...honestly...I'm not in a hurry, given what's going on, and given that I have other WIPs that are, in my opinion, much stronger examples of my work. If I manage to recover it, and decide to publish it, rest assured I'll let everyone know. But it's back-burner right now. And perhaps its loss is a blessing, in truth. It was basically just "Kris learns how to trust/Roman learns how to be someone who doesn't run away/sex/the Lean Dogs make more enemies." Your basic stuff. 

Let's see...that's probably it for now. It's miserably hot. Lots to do. I'm trying not to think about that blog post I read recently which talked about the number of books indie authors have to crank out a year. Trying not to think about that at all...failing. Trying to write some shorter things, faster things, standalone things. Also trying to write big epic things. Because I never learn. 

Happy Monday.